Disembodied She
What do you believe it means to be disembodied? Lets pull out a textbook definition first(because I love dictionaries!!)
From Oxford Languages: Disembodied-separated from or existing without the body
So if you are of the belief that mind/body/soul is what creates the unique spark in every person
Then being disembodied means 1/3 of you is not fully actualized.
It means you are operating from the head up, the mind is in charge. And really, without the body in the picture its not going to be easy to access your soul.
Being embodied is everything!!
Without the wisdom of your body you are a walking talking robot. Repeating facts and living from everybody else’s desires, expectations, and goals.
I was on the more disembodied side of the spectrum for a long time. It showed up in my life as-
a complete shut down of my sexual sensations. I was numb and could not access my desire
overeating. As a chronic bulimic who dabbled in anorexia growing up I always had issues with my body. I did not love my body or trust her. I misused her and did not hear her calling for something different.
lack of confidence. feeling of inauthenticity of who I was. I was not connected to my truth and so I was inauthentic. Trying to be somebody else
always searching. I was looking for more more more and it was always outside of me. More fun, more sex, more aliveness. But at the same time I was running from what I knew to be true in my deepest heart…that I was not living in alignment, that things had to change
zero decision making ability. my yes’s and my no’s were not mine. I looked for others to tell me if I was hungry or needed to pee. I stayed at the same service job for 7 years waiting to know what to do with my life. I was scared to speak my own truth and to stand up for what I desired.
always in go mode. I was perpetually in motion. Getting things done and yet always having more to do, it never ended. I did so I wouldn’t have to slow down and actually feel
disconnect. I wouldn’t let people get close to me(in case they saw the real me). I kept friends at arms length with no trust for other women.
passive aggressiveness. My anger showed up as a silent brooding mood. Instead of recognizing what I was feeling, sharing with my partner, and finding a solution I chose my high and angry horse. I hoarded my feelings like I had my entire life, like I was taught to do as a child. I choked back my sadness, my anger, and my ¨negativity¨. In doing so it created chasms between us that couldn’t be crossed, resentment, and shame.
Our culture has taught us over and over to disconnect with our bodies. On the path to ¨success¨ there is no room for taking it slow, listening to what is true for us, and then following through with whatever comes up.
But we have a choice. We can slow down. We can check in. We can begin to trust in our bodies knowing.
Embodiment is all about inhabiting your body. So do it. Take the time every day to check in. Ask yourself-¨what do I need today¨and instead of doing the things that makes the most sense, do the thing that whispers up from your heartspace, do the thing your body is craving.
You are brilliant, so shine baby shine
