in pursuit of more
ONE of the messages Capitalism ingrained in me is that more is better.
Profit over people, profit over bodies. Making money is most important. More is better and to get more I must work really really hard. And if i am not working hard I am not doing it right. And if I am not getting the more that I desire I must not be working hard enough.
What kind of body can handle all that demand?
Good thing we as human beings have been bred to dissociate from our bodies from the beginning of time. To say see ya bladder you can hold it another hour while I push through this deadline. Or going an entire 8 hour shift without eating because, sitting down would be ¨wasting time¨..both scenarios I have experienced.
From the moment we are born, and even in the womb, the pursuit for more begins.
Here is a taste of my own lived experience of capitalism as a healthy, middle class, white woman-
I was born on time and raised with all my needs met, holidays were a time of excess, the more gifts, more food, more fun the better. I was taught more is better
my mom, working part time as a waitress, and full time as a mother was scorned by my father for ¨not contributing¨monetarily to the family. I was taught that a woman’s unpaid labor as ¨caregiver¨ was not worthy of recognition
when i grew up I found myself working part time in a restaurant and full time raising my 2 kids. My ex asked me when I was going to find a ¨real job¨. To compensate I wore myself thin doing all the dishes, all the cooking, all the cleaning, all the caretaking. In my mind ¨balancing¨ our load
For the longest time I believed that when someone asked me ¨how are you doing?¨ My response had to include the word`busy´ so I wouldn’t be seen as a lazy person
Breaking free of the myth that more is better aint always a piece of pie.
Even now I catch myself feeling the affects of capitalism, like when I choose to take a break and go sit in the sun, my first instinct is to chastise myself for not do-ing something ¨productive¨ with my free time.
Its a process, untangling ourselves from the web of lies we have been raised to believe. But, when we choose to let go of the myth that `more is better´ we make room for everything that we already have.
To keep it simple, just feel into a time in your life when you over ate. How did that make you feel? Bloated? Ill? Did you regret what you ate?
You can take that scenario and use it with anything in your life. Over indulging in work, in money, in sex, in booze, in exercise, etc.
There is a sweet spot of having enough but not too much. But, how to know that spot, you must first become intimate with what your body is telling you.
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